Skill and the Big Shadow Cube

Something I've pondered about before is the massive size of the human race on the planet. How do people who perform really get around this fact. to have that many people giving you attention, a great amount of skill is required but what is sad is most people aren't conscious of how they can accomplish something so great but then again sometimes they are so it implies that skill can be based on the amount of self consciousness someone has while they perform. So a kind of trinity is formed when people show skill while being self-conscious (player, whats being played, and consciousness of the changes made afterwards) that produces a fruit that is liked by all, or as close as can be to all. But how do you create a fruit that is liked by all? I don't think its possible but the more one tries and practices it seems the better one gets.

One really has to know themselves to talk to another so shining that light during the performance can be dazzling  but how can this be possible if everyone is shining their own light? It's just a fact I cannot get over. To write or perform with skill requires talking to the many different layers that make up a human being to come up with something interesting but people are dynamically changing all the time and many people aren't even paying attention to what is being performed enough to write something that fits the whole human race. But then we get into the light body and how some process information quickly at light levels to bring about a cohesive and balanced thing that anyone can look at its just overwhelming. Nevertheless many people do it time and time again which always brings me wonder and joy as to how its done and its something I wish to learn as well.

Introducing the shadow cube, which is the idea that ones being is simultaneously obliterated and reformed by oneself by the non-existance of one in anothers' life, it is staggering to see so many people showing such talent despite this shadow cubes existence. But does it show skill to not be aware of this fact and still perform?

Spiderman motivation

Spider man as a hero has always stood out to me. In fact,  it was the seed to my original motivation to survive almost dying at the hands of a powerful demon. Nevertheless, the hero has always stood out across time and always seemed to be part of a deeper plan for me. Here in El paso, a story has been brewing and I'm here to tell the story.

Here's how the story goes: as a child,  I was always fearless except in some circumstances where fear had overcome my mind completely for short periods of time,  things I would have to work through later in life. I was always smart though and had a knack for learning things quite easily.  I learned that leaving high school early,  I would be able to jump ahead in school and enter college earlier than I would have if I left high school on time so I took the opportunity. I ended up realizing school was not all about advancement but about the friends and connections you're able to keep while in school.

Fast forward a year or so, I started to dabble in some of the darker forms of sexual magic,  something I didn't know at the time, (I would masterbate a lot with images held in my mind or imagine other people's sexual experiences through my own third eye), and one day shared energy with something deeper than my body could handle and dipped below the speed of light for a short period of time. It hurt.  I almost died from energy being pulled away from my sacral region at a rapid pace and could do nothing but wince over in pain.  I wouldn't give up though and could do nothing but laugh and say man if I survive this im definitely not doing this again. Somehow it worked and the pain subsided.  I was left dumbfounded and a scared child as to what just happened. Who was I supposed to turn to for almost being dipped in a place like this.

I lived my life another week and (still eating meat) I was lead by my animal instincts to go to the desert nearby, something I did as a child to meditate and stare at the stars. Something didn't feel right though and I was still in shock as to what had happened before.  Never the less I went and that's when things got ugly.

While I was there,  I started to feel sexual feelings again.  I promised myself I wouldn't try it again but I was overcome and started to generate sexual energy in my lower region.  You see,  I was trying to view other people  sexual experiences through my own third eye. That's how I almost got drained in the first place and decided to do it again. This time in the middle of the desert and at night once again.

I got aroused and started to unconsciously steal this guy's body.  I had no idea what I was doing at the time,  I thought I was just being aroused but after what had happened I knew it was someone.  Upon orgasm I withheld my own ejaculation and felt something horrifying in my own body,  I could feel my entire left side of my body had fused with both the male and female side of the people my body had been watching. I was completely disgusted and scared I couldn't believe what had happened.  I started to cry,  I knew someone had been terribly hurt by what I had done. I walked around and could feel my left foot being peirce d by a penis time every time i stepped and I could feel the guys cold dead body and could hear the female scramble trying to figure out what to do. He definitely died cause I could feel his penis overlaying my own penis and my own body felt just as cold.

I drove back home trying to figure out what to do...I tried psychicly finding the couple, I thought they might be in the city.  I even visited some hospitals to see if they would show up but to no avail. That night I became tainted by a very dark energy and am trying to say I have found ways through this experience to counteract dark energy.

The universe has a big plan for all of us,  and for me I can say no doubt I survived for a reason,  to bring this knowledge to the human race for protection against future attacks against the physical body and a major secret I have learned is the true seed that is at the heart of the evil on the planet. ...the destructive force of the beast itself. ...to have sex with everything no matter how destructive. I actually learned this from watching my cat as the animals on the planet are being eaten alive in some places

Not knowing what to do about the situation, I lived my life in shambles. Disgusted I could feel the penis entering my foot for a couple of days afterwards everytime I stepped my left foot. I was on a course to a very horrible death. I had been dragged into something far greater than me and I only hoped I could survive,  to get another chance at a normal life, something I had never experienced (a girlfriend,  a life,  a job) but I would have to work hard to bring it about I just knew it.

I had absolutely no bearing but the one thing that motivated me was the spiderman seed. Spiderman showed me not to give up and that motivation carried me out of the hole I placed myself in. I knew the only way I could have survived twice is if I myself had a reason to live and I carry that depth with me to this day.

So what did I do. I sat in a kind of meditation by myself and wondered what the fuck am I supposed to do. Ideas came very quickly to my mind. I knew there was some kind of demonic structure behind all of this something tangible...a matrix of some kind.  I had seen the matrix before and the words came to me. ...i needed to find the codes to the demonic matrix if I was to survive and so I searched code to the matrix on Google and got exactly what I needed, someone who was trying to help the planet itself,  someone who could potentially help me.  I read the book and knew something deeper was happening around me,  something more than what I had originally thought.

With this authors help I learned how to clean and manage the body and was able to have a new chance at life and am happy to say I plan to use this new chance productively. Had I continued to eat meat I would have died in my sleep but with a good fast and with help I was able to survive.

Sadly, with these people's energy attached to me,  I became almost invisible astrally. I had become a demonic entity. Many things occurred but what I'm trying to say for the one who had stolen the seed is that one should not meddle in affairs so quickly when they are in a process....big plans were set in motion upon these events and I am still hurt by multiple things that had happened, it is unfair that I have come so far surviving many things using my own mind and willpower leading something greater than you can imagine only to have it taken from me out of some fancy of just wanting it. Many things have occurred to have these events in placeand the universe is not happy with the result.

Later I learned of what's called a split, or severing of consciousness to two different timeliness.  One of the time lines being where I did actually drop below the speed of light. I believe I was told about it telepathically but I'm not sure.  I began to receive a lot of information about my lower dimension and how it was being used to destroy people and heard that the entire dimension actually had been taken over by evil beings with my dimension being used as a passage way through my OK dimension to gather information. Many brave souls were involved and I feel some are stranded on that dimension and wish me to tell anyone who can listen that their lower dimension does exist and would like to be known to anyone involved